De-stagnation??

I never manage to actually write posts when I initially have the thoughts that prompt them. I usually end up forgetting them before I can get around to writing. Which is probably good for you, because otherwise you'd get sick of hearing about every random thought that comes into my head. I don't normally end up writing until late at night. I think the reason for this is because 2 o clock in the morning is when everyone else has finally gone to bed and there are no other demands on my time but sleep, and sleep can easily be put off.

I discovered recently that when I'm thinking about and helping other people I am really quite happy. Its when I start thinking about myself and worrying about me and mine and my life and why it sucks and why I'm a horrible person that I start getting messed up.

Recently I've started changing a lot of things in my life. A lot of things have come into focus. I've fixed a lot of broken things. Its certainly not instantaneous though. It's a process. I'm going to have to keep working on it for a while. As in I'll probably be finding things to work on for the rest of my life. But thats good. It avoids stagnation. Stagnation, by the way, is an awesome word, but I've never heard it used out of the book I got it from. I hate stagnation. In friendships, in projects, in life.

Ganesh the friendly elephant headed god that removes obstacles from the path of those that pray to him is still my favorite.